And
we loved this little bundle of joy. Our chunk-a-munk.
We
felt that life was good, that things had fallen into
place after medical
school and residency and after getting settled at
our new jobs. Only one week
before February 4th, Sunny and I were talking and
saying, ``God, we are so
blessed.'' And we dreamed of Matty's future and of
Matty and Brendan together,
playing ball and rough-housing.
And to wiry little Brendan
we would joke, ``You better be nice to your brother.
He's going to be a lot bigger than you.''
They were so beautifully
different, like Tigger and Winnie-the-Pooh. We felt
happy and secure. We loved our family and wouldn't
change a thing.
But on February 4th, 1997,
all our hopes and dreams were torn apart. Our Matty
had been hurt. We soon learned our baby Matthew was
dying. We couldn't believe it. It was all inconceivable,
and it was beyond us to comprehend that our Matty
was dying because someone we trusted had hurt him.
We couldn't give up hope.
We wished for a miracle. We would love Matty anyway.
He didn't need to be perfect. Could he survive with
maybe half a brain?
But repeat tests and CAT
scans showed there was nothing to save. The whole
brain was destroyed. There would be no life for Matty.
On February 9th, we made the most painful decision
in our lives. We had to let Matty go, be free of this
life's pain.